My perspective was bright, from time to
time, filled to the brim with ambition;
social cognition was a fallacy
I would prove innate along the way.
Three years at University,
and I was becoming transparent.
Like so many others, I was determined
to change the world; instead, I stumbled
my way to Psych services. I am part of a lost
generation, beyond Hemingway's understanding
of the concept—like many before me;
like the young adults I see today.
However, this is fact not fiction—soon
they'll be out creating ultra-violence,
listening to Beethoven's ninth,
and calling each other 'droogies'.
Maybe that was my generation, lost
in transition, bred for recognition
of failed architecture. We are the Zoloft era,
and age is unrestrictive at this point;
fed pills and coerced onto couches
to be treated by doctors
with more problems than our own.
It's nothing that can't be learned
by looking towards the night sky.
The stars, while otherworldly, share
with us the same lessons: everything is
always moving—I orbit you, as you orbit me.
Duality is lost in two grains of sand;
don't stare too long at an illusion.
Nothing really important
We are not now that strength which in old days Moved earth and heaven, that which we are, we are; One equal temper of heroic hearts, Made weak by time and fate, but strong in will To strive, to seek, to find, and not to yield. —Tennyson
Tuesday, October 27, 2020
Presence - r1
Thursday, October 15, 2020
In the Deep - r1
I have been anesthetized by the Deep,
and here under a starless sky
I found a home: a place absent of light
where I can sleep. No doves rest on
the crest of solemn gates I seek, to greet
with unquiet praise—instead, the wretched
soulless wraiths have gathered round
with hauteur flavor: a fitting station
for those in limbo of His grace.
Cold as winter's breath are the hearts
of those behind these gates, and their shivers
are enough to shake both worlds which men
consider to be night or day. But the words
He whispers still echo in this hallowed land—
so strange it is, the lending of a foreign hand.
Friday, March 20, 2020
Missing Pieces - r1
Tuesday, September 6, 2016
Dreaming on Park Benches
Sometimes I have dreams of you;
they seem to be the only ones I remember.
I was lost and sleeping on a bench
on your front porch.
You left your vehicle and looked down at me.
I rubbed the sun from my eyes long enough
to watch you walk right past.
When I awoke I could still feel you leaving.
The depth I felt between us was wider
than the empty space between us on the blanket
on the hill, at the concert you bought us tickets for.
It's the sadness I felt writing a letter
telling you: I Love You. There is so much space
between your laugh, and my smile, and your
Son, and my Nephew. I can no longer connect
the dots between us.
But I miss you. Waiting on park benches,
waiting in my dreams: I miss you.
Thursday, December 24, 2015
The Road Home (Baptism revision 2)
Friday, July 10, 2015
In the Deep
like you, and here under a starless sky
I've found a home: a place absent of light
where I can sleep. No doves rest on
the crest of solemn gates I seek to greet
with unquiet praise - instead the wretched
soulless wraiths have gathered round
with hauteur flavor: a fitting station
for those in limbo of His grace.
Cold as winter's breath are the hearts
of those behind these gates and their shivers
are enough to shake both worlds which men
consider to be night or day. But the words
He whispers still echo in this hallowed land—
so much, it's strange, the lending of a foreign hand.
Wednesday, July 8, 2015
Dreams
Fight for them in waking hours,
burden comes during light.
So sudden the mind shifts its pose,
claiming all powers—
during night the mind forgoes.
An arm around her slips;
circles, swarms, and forlorn—
aches for pressure of hips.
They'll wait for midnight hours;
for the presence of her lips.